Emma's first field trip

Yesterday my little girl went on her first field trip. She went to see the play the tortis and the hare. She had never been to a play before or anything like the setting she was in. It was preformed by the porkchop productions. The play consisted of only two people and they randomly picked children out of the audience to help them. One of the children they picked was sitting beside my little girl ( I was a chaperon). My child turned to me and asked why they did not pick her. I told her that she needed to raise her hand just like her classmate did. When her classmate got on stage you could tell that she was very very nervous but I think she did rather well. After we got home My child said that she did not want me to go with her next time because she wanted to hold one of her classmates hand instead of holding mine the entire time. O guess I can live with that.

I do not know if I have mentioned before about my in-laws but they have a daughter (she's 30+) and she has odine curse or at least I think that is what is is called others call it CCD. Basically it is a mutated gene, what it does is that when the person that has it goes to sleep the brain forgets to tell the lungs to work and the person dies, to prevent this the person must be hooked up to a machine to breath for them because they can not do it on their own. My husband had a hard time getting used to us having a "normal" child after dealing with his sister for the past 30 years. I am happy to say, well happy is not a strong enough word, lets say it makes me ecstatic that he does not compare our child to his sister any longer. His parents not so much. In the cold months they do not let her out of the house, she it what you could say on lock down. The only place she can go is outside in her own yard and if someone comes to the yard she has to put as much distance as possible between herself and them. It is a pitiful life that poor girl had led. I'm just glad my child was born normal, or dare I say perfect.

School days

Well my little girl has been going to school, this marks her third week. It has been hard, but not near as hard as I thought it would be. Her first day she walked right in and didn't look back. I thought that it was a good sign, but I learned that sometimes having an independent child is not always the best thing. Her second week landed her in the "Time Out" chair. To put it mildly I was slightly upset. I can't say that I'm really that surprised but I will say she has a lot of her father in her. I have been told about how he was always in the time out chair. Knowing about how he grew up helps me understand him better. He had a rough life. He has a sister that was born with Ondine's curse (AKA congenital central hypoventilation syndrome) basically, when she goes to sleep her brain does not tell her lungs to work. When she was born they basically focused everything on her, and honestly they still do. You had better not sneeze or cough around her because if you do you will have to leave, because they will not have anyone with any type of germs around her. It has been really hard for my husband, and when our daughter was born I know that one think that really scared him was the thought that our child would be born with it. But God was looking out for us. And honestly the entire time I was carrying her I knew that everything would be fine. I guess I just have that kind of faith in the God I serve. I know that He is watching out for me and that in the end all things work together for good to them that love the Lord.



A Sock Monkey for my little girl

This is the Sock Monkey that I made my little girl. She said she wanted a girl sock monkey so I made it so that it would have eyelashes. It has a hat but she does not like the hat on her new toy, she'd rather another toy wear the hat. It is the first time that I have ever made one and I am happy with the way it turned out.

Last Vacation before school starts

Well it won't be long before my little girl starts school (less than a week actually). My husband and I took a trip to the beach for our last vacation before she starts school. We did not plan anything special, except to sit back and relax. The only plans I had was to sit on the beach and make a sandcastle, and of course spend some time with my husband and little girl. We did and I can honestly say we had a wonderful time. I made a sandcastle and my little girl made one right beside me. It was a wonderfully fun time. My husband likes to walk along the edge of the water and look for sharks teeth, and normally he finds a few, he has even taught our daughter what to look for and I think she enjoys it. Yes we had a wonderfully vacation. Times like these are precious and can't be repeated. I enjoy the times I have with my family. They are times to cherish and hold dear. n

My Grandmother

I came across this picture several days ago. It is a picture of my Grandmother when she went to my wedding, God rest her soul. She was the sweetest lady in the world, and also the most loving woman to walk the face of the earth. Heaven a much brighter place with her there. And it makes my heart glad that I gave my only child her name.

going to the vet

I had to make an appointment for the family pet it's just a checkup but it has to be done if you want a healthy pet. I have never taken my daughter in the past and this time I asked her is she wanted to go. She did not hesitate, she wanted to go with me this time. I just can't help but wonder how it will go.

Daddy's little girl

I took my little girl to the park yesterday. I normally take her to a park that has a walking trail, but not this time. I took her to another park that had swings and a sliding board. Sometimes I will look at her and it amazes me just how big she has become. She is four years old now and will be starting preschool this fall. It will only be half a day, but I am figuring that she will probably want to go a full day once she has made some friends. Until then I am going to enjoy the time that I have with her. She already has an independent streak so I am wondering if that will change once she starts school. Sometimes I will look at her and I will see so much of her father in her. Sometimes I will hear them playing in the other room, and then I will hear her voice simply say "Daddy I love you." That really is the sweetest thing I think I have ever heard her say. I will ask her sometimes who's girl are you. Without hesitation she will say "I am Daddy's girl." and I know that it is true. I was a Daddy's girl growing up, and I know that my little girl will be to.

Starting school this August

Well it has taken a while but my daughter has mastered potty training. She has gone over a month without an accident and she is now wearing regular underwear to bed now. I can't express to you how happy this makes me. At the same time it is somewhat bittersweet though I like the fact that I don't have to worry about diapers and training pants anymore. My little girl is growing up. She will be starting school this year in August. She will only be going a half a day, but the school assured me that my husband and I could change it into a full day in the future. When I started school in kindergarten I only went a half a day. Now kindergarten is a full day. My nephew (who is now 17) started out in preschool as a half day and it was hard for him because he had never been away from his mother or grandmother. My other nephew (who is 7) had to start at a full day. It was really hard for him because he also had never been away from his mother (or should I say grandmother, actually my mother you might as well say raised them both, they have the same mother, my sister). It put the now 7 year old in a tailspin because everything was so new to him. He had to some adjusting and I mean fast. I did not want my child to have to go through that. The school also assured me that they would easily accept volunteers to help out during the school day. Since I have been a stay at home mom I know that I will take the school up on that.

My Vacation at the beach

My family and I spent the last week at the beach. We only live about an hour and half drive from the beach so we can actually make it a day trip if we wanted to. We stayed at the caravelle resort http://thecaravelle.com/. It was nice to be able to sit on the balcony and see the ocean and wake up to it every morning. But to be perfectly honest as much as I liked the vacation it was nice to come back home. I think my entire family felt the same way.

vacation at the beach

Me and my family got back from a week at the beach. It was nice to be someplace else for a change and I can say that I really did enjoy myself. The first half of the week was cold but it really turned around at the end. My husband planned the trip so that we would be there on our 5Th anniversary. It was so nice to wake up look out the window and see the ocean. One thing that surprised us was the fact that we saw someone that looked like Santa Clause. We have seen him there before and we spoke to him this time and he had several pictures of himself and Mrs Clause. During Christmas time he decorates his home (and himself) and so does his wife. I guess you could say he is Santa to a degree. My little girl did not say much she is still in the shy stage when it comes to Santa Clause. If we see him again I'm sure she might want to take her picture with him I suppose time will tell.

One thing that we really enjoyed was building sand castles. I never did that as a kid growing up and now that I have a child of my own I can do it now. I am usually doing it when my husband is combing the shore looking for sharks teeth. Yes I said sharks teeth. As I was looking along the shore with my daughter for shells to decorate a sandcastle she found one. I showed my husband and I think he was so proud. He taught me how to look for them and and that was something he wanted out child to learn how to do. I am glad that she found them. It is something that we have passed on to her, and isn't that what parents are suppose to do, pass things to their children.

Mothers day

Mothers day was yesterday and I just had to share what my little girl got me. She picked it out herself and that makes it extra special.

Morning

My little girl will be starting school this year. The one thing I will miss the most is the time we have in the morning. When I wake her up we will lay in the bed and talk about what we are going to do that day. Sometimes she will look at me and say "I love You Mommy," and then she will give me a big hug. Those words are the sweetest words I think any child can tell their parents. I just hug her back and smile. When she starts to school that will be something of the past. Gone will be the days we just lay down and talk about nothing and everything. We might do it on the weekends but I know that it will not be that often, and soon is will be a distant memory. I like the sound of her before she goes to bed when she is talking to her Daddy and telling him all about what she has done all the day. Having a child is a blessing, and my heart goes out to the people that don't have children of their own. My brother is planning to get married this September and his bride to be wants 5 children. To me that is a bit much how about one at the time before you start talking more. What if there is a medical problem and they can't have any let alone 5. He thinks that he has it all figured out. What he does not understand yet it that children are different and so are parenting styles. The way he wants to raise a child may not be necessarily the way she wants to raise a child, there will be clashes. And what if they have a child that is a special needs child. I am sure that this is something they have not even thought about. His bride to be is so sure of what she wants and she is not considering what he wants (as far as children, maybe other things I don't know). I just hope that the marriage is not over before it begins. According to the bible the man is suppose to me the head of the house and I fear that she thinks it is her place to impose her will and desires on him. If she is indeed this way I fear that the marriage will not last. Marriage is a partnership not a dictatorship you have to compromise with your spouse and always think about what they want. You are suppose to put them ahead of yourself. I just hope that this is what she does once they get married. And that she does not railroad him once they are married.

Mothers day is May 8

Mothers day is coming. There is no telling what my little girl is going to get me. I would like something nice just like any mother would. I am expecting a toy or something, because if it is left up to her to get me something that is what my little girl will get. For fathers day last year she got my husband a stuffed animal and for the first few weeks she did not want to play with it. Now it is forever in her bedroom along with all her other stuffed animals. I hope if she does choose a toy that I can enjoy playing with when I play with her. But whatever it is I know it will be special because I know that she will have chosen it herself whether it's a toy or anything else.

Children look like their parents

My little girl is growing up so fast. Sometimes I can't believe that she is getting as big as she is. I was watching her the other night while she was sleeping and I remembered when she fit so snugly in my arms. Sometimes I look at her and I see myself as she is sleeping and sometimes I see my husband. She is the only child we are planning to have and I love the fact that people see both me and my husband when they look at her. Even strangers what see us all together as a family look at us and there is no question that she is our child.

Muddy puddles

Yesterday my daughter, (who is only four years old) wanted to do something that was completely messy, and completely dirty. She wanted to jump in a mud puddle. And Yes I let her. I got the garden hose out and put water on the ground and let her play in the mud. Yes she got dirty, yes she got wet and yes she had the most fun she ever had in her young life. My husband came up and asked why was I letting out sweet pretty little girl play in the mud. He wasn't mad, he was just wondering. I simply told him, "She's having fun and it's just dirt, it will wash off." Think about it they are only young once and the thought has occurred to me that at the age of four is when have memories that you always remember. My first memory was when my mother brought my baby brother home from the hospital I was barely four years old. True there are a lot of gaps between then and other times but that memory it the one I can honestly say is my oldest. I don't know is she will remember the day momma let her make a mess in the mud, but the joy on her face and the dirt that covered her from head to toe is a memory that I will remember for years to come. And the thought just occurred to me it may be the way I remember her. Let me explain. I have learned in the short time I have been a parent that there are times when a child will look at you and that is the image that you have of that child years later. Twenty years from now when my little girl is married and possibly has children of her own the image I have of her may very well be the image of her smiling at me covered in mud. I guess what I am really trying to say is let a child be a child. Now days so many people want their children to grow up to fast and there leaves no room for being a child. So I say if your child wants to play in the mud let them they will only be that little once and they need to enjoy it and you do to.

A Milestone : Pre-School

It's been a while since I have posted anything, well so much for my new year's resolution. Several things have been going on in my life the most important thing so far is bitter sweet. My little girl will be starting preschool this year. She will be 4 years old and is growing up so fast. It is true they don't stay little long. She is the only child I have and my husband and I have talked about it and she is the only child we are planning to have. That will all change if God chooses for us to have another. If he does it will be his will and I am not one to go against God. If you go against God it can be very bad news for you (think of the bible story, Jonah and the whale).

We are planning to send her to a christian school, to be totally honest I feel that she will be safer there. I've been to the school and they have camera's at the front of the school so nobody can just walk in, and that gives me a since of security when it comes to my child. I just hope that they accept her, if not there is another school that she can go to that should be just as good. She will only be going a half day, but I was assured that she could change to a full day later in the school year.

A part of me can't wait and then there is another part of me that hates the idea of her going to school. I'll miss the time every morning when we lay in the bed and just talk and she will tell me things that may or may not make any since. But let's face it, children grow up, and there is nothing we can do to stop it. I love my little girl and I hope and pray that I have done a good job as a parent, and that God will always be with her.

My Little Mouse

Well my little girl has discovered Mickey Mouse. She has certain clothes she wants to wear. Red pants, black shirt (with nothing on it) and yellow shoes and she has to wear a specific hat as you can see, she also has to hold Pluto. I mean after all he is Mickey's dog. I would love to take her to Disney world so that shew can meet Mickey himself, but I have to say it cost so much money. I had a timeshare that was about two miles from the parks that it was more trouble than it was worth. I had to pay the maintenance fee every year and I could not be guaranteed that I would even get to vacation the time that I wanted. Don't get me wrong Disney is a place I love to vacation. It is a magical place and I would tell anyone you should go, but just make sure that you put back the money because it is very expensive. We might go next year time will tell.